For those who knowing my marriage trouble before, I guess this is the end. Half of me glad that no more drama after this. I just too tired. We will proceed with our divorce. finally it happen after the girl call me. Actually she the mysterious girl who sms me before and digging about our marriage lives.

Yesterday morning, suddenly received a call from his girlfriend. Wonder what she wants from me. Anyway, we talked for so long, about him. She told me that till yesterday night they are still together. She scared about my husband behaviour, that so weird and 'psycho'. Told me that he ate what the dog ate. couldn't sleep at night, always hungry, very easy to get angry, rude, liar, gay? and so on.  Up to her if she willing to be with him.She told me that she is planning to leave him and ask me not to tell him.

I do wish him birthday yesterday. Thought that he seems to be nice come to the house and giving money, even after we fight over sms the day before. He looks terrible. Thin and looks messy. He came with Max and both of them smells stink!

And the girl did apologised to me after all she did. I actually do not know how to handle that because never expect it from that kind of girl. The girl that I shouted with before. She told me everything, more that I want to hear. God is too great to gave me these test. There nothing I can do, but just to swallow it and feel the pain no matter where I turn. And until now, still can hear and imagine what she told me. God.......

After talking with her, hesitated whether proceed to summon her. But, from what I've heard from her, thought that I should go ahead with the summon. She always can get away from my husband. But, she stick to my husband till now. When my husband did not came back last night and never reply to her sms, then only she come to me. She even admit that, the time I was in front of the girl's house, actually she with my husband inside and my husband hiding under her bed! On the valentine's day, when my husband send a gift to my daughter, he waiting downstair inside my car! When I was away to work, she came to my house!

God, I don't know what will happen and don't really care. All I can feel right now is hurt and painfull. God, why they do this to me?

The same day, yesterday night....(I guess he only back at night), he suddenly sms me and telling that the girl stole the house key from him. Then, the following sms, he ask me wether i could except him if he wants to come back. Then, he ask me whether I went to the house and report to police about his d*** activities. Told him the truth that I don't even know where he staying. Then, he told me that he wants to come back. I think the girl really leave him and he got panic. Told him, to be relaxed, maybe god wants to communicate with him. But, then he ask if I want to start over. What is he thinking? What I am to him? After the girl leave him than only he came to me? But, I just reply in a nice way, sound good to him. That, I waited for 2 years to heard that words from him. But, now its too late. I just want to move on. He ask if am sure about that. I told him am sure, and ask him to stop call or sms me unless about our daughter. I guess this is the end....finally....

I still feel hurt, but I know I will be okay and I want to move on. If I accept him back I will be stuck forever and nothing will be changed. God knows I miss my husband, the one that I married 3 years ago. The one that I fall in love with. But he just gone to far away and I don't know where is he.