After he beg me and much more promises I have to gave him my car.

He promise to return back the car the next morning, which I have to do some shopping with my daughter.but, end up he not turn up for two days. He never gone that far before.He off his phone (but, according to him, no battery). i couldn't reach him for two days! i couldn't hold myself. I think I know where is he.

So, I text my sister in law to get the girl's address. I was so determine to get back my car. But, I guess that not only the reason. Make things worse, my sister in law tell everybody what is going on, and coincidently my sister in law know the girl's family and according to her, the girl came from broken family and got some police case.

The third day, when my H still out of reach, we (my in laws) went to the girl's house. I was hoping to see my car and just run away with it if its there but I was disappointed. The girl family also won't open the door. I was soo angry but nothing much we can do.

On the way back, they call and telling to meet up somewhere else to discuss things. Although am not sure what they want to discuss but I make it clear to my in law that, i just want my car for the sake of my daughter. I don't care if my H wants to stay with the girl or what. We waited at the said place almost two hours in the rain. My patience has gone. I can feel my head really wants to blow up. I ask my brother in law send me to the nearest police station where i lodge a report against my own H!

I know...I shoudn't do all that, but I was so desperate to get back my car. That night my H suddenly on his phone and we shouting over the phone. He really mad about what we did earlier. But, my brother in law manage to get him to send back my car. He left the car at our house instead of my brother in laws house, so had to get the car from there. Weird....I feel release once I sitting behind the steering, although part of me feeling sad with immagination H having a good time with the girl (H confess to my brother in law earlier, he not happy with me. He happy with the girl's family and he won't come back to me).

Once I have my car back i never try to reach him. Funny his phone is on all the time. He text me everyday, try to borrow the car again from me and everytime we will argue over text messaging blaming, attacking and defense ourself. He sound so angry with every words he send to me.

Finally, after four days, he said he will come home to see our daughter. I thought he will pack his thing and leave after that, but he change to his pyjama and play with our daughter till late night. When my daugher asleep, he send her to me and return back to his couch and sleep.And today, for the sake of peaceful day, I do not want to argue when he said he wants to borrow the car. And as usual I have to wait for him in the office more than 2 hrs to come and fecth me. I wish, I have other alternative beside than rely to that car to come home and fetch my daughter at MILs!

On Dec 2008, this is what I wrote:

Went to lawyer to discuss about D procedure and in the process. Weird...feel half of my heart torn apart. Not sure if am doing the right thing. All I know, I just don't want to go thru all this s**t for the rest of our life.

Been talking about D with him as well, his reaction is not consistent. Yesterday he said really wants to D, today he said thinking to get back together but, and so on....We still not in a good terms right now. We still mad at each other. He mad because my in law interfere in our problem and his reputation become so bad, plus he really mad because I do not want loan the car to him. I need the car to work and fecth our daughter in the evening or late night. He needs the car to visit his freinds and god knows what else since he not working. And I still mad at him because keep missing for 2/3 days, then come back home one day before missing again for another 2/3 days.