Hurt, it really hurt....

It started on last Friday.

In the evening he said he wants to borrow the car to see his friends and I allowed it. Then, in the middle of the night suddenly rceived a call from a stranger telling me that my husband kidnapped her daughter. She actually the girl's mother. I got angry. Why now only she tell me all these thing. When actually she can prevent the problem since the beginning. I yell and shout at her. She even told me that the police will call me regarding the thing.

There is someone talking to me later, told me that he is a police officer. But who wants to believe? Police got so many things to do instead of calling people one by one in the middle of the night. I call my husband and told her got emergency at home. Need him to send the car. It took almost an hour for him to reach home. How come he do this. He being nice to me, but still cheating me behind. So, when he reached, I told him to give me back the house key and car key. Ask him to bring Max out with him. Which he did. He call me bitch before went off.

When he came back that evening, i told him what happen and he seems to be angry and he said he wants to borrow the car to make police report and arrange everything else. I ask him if he go and see the girl, he swore upon Darlene that he never see her again. I believe and give him the car.

He never came back for the night and I consider again what the mother told me. He off his phone. So, when the mother call again that morning I ask the mother if she could do me a favor, she immediately agreed.How come he do this to me. Told me that he have no one right now. He rather be single and stuff like that, but now the mother telling me about the sms between her daughter and my husband. About how they make love and alot more.

I feel so devastated. He cheated on me over and over and I so blind to look at it. I went to see the mother at Sunway. I saw the T Shirt that I bought for him, the travel bag that he bring back from Bali last time. They all admire my calmness. They told me that nobody can handle the situation like me. So calm and still can smile. But, they don't know what the storm inside look like.

In the middle of conversation, my mother in law called and told me that she have some news regarding my husband. She wanted to talk to me. I told myself....'my god another story to tear me apart, how much longer I can take". But I go to see her that evening anyway. My mother in law, brother in law, sister in law. Almost everyone is there....She told me that girl's father looking for her. He called my mother in law and talked rude. He told my mother in law to look after their son, and behave. Not by kidnapping and run away with people's daughter. I keep quite while everybody's eyes on me. Some give me sad look, pity look and then look at my daughter.

Back at home, I look around the house. So much thing happen. Too much damages he do. What else he could do. This guy @ 'my husband' is different man that I married 3 years ago. He loving, caring, responsibility and he knows what is right and what is wrong. But, this guy that An***** AP S*****n fall in love with is the other guy. The ugly guy who married, have a daughter. He is jobless and totally lost in life.

So much story that the girl's mother feed me until I don't think I want to hear it anymore. Aside than that, I was so astonished by their behaviour. I mean the mother, who just wash her hand. But, I guess I can understand that since the daughter hurt her so much thru all the hurtfull sms. I can't imagine I talk to my own mom like that. Even how much I hate my father, I would never do such thing like she willing to do. Maybe that just the act from young girl - 18years old girl that miseducated by the mother and from a broken family. Maybe that the rebellion from a 18 years old girl to his parents. Did I saw my own future? or my own daughter future? It really scary. She hug my husband in front of the family, not only verbally rude and rough she also report to police against her own mother accuse of something impossible!. If the mother really abandon her, she will be in the orphanage right now.

I have their picture together, but I couldn't put it here. It will hurt me more and more. It will hurt my daughter too if she look at the picture. Today, back to office I talked to my boss about my problems. He/she seems to be understand.

And today, since early morning my husband sms me to return back the car, But, until now the car still with him. Worried he will break the house like what he did to the mother's house and take whatever he wants to take, now that he with the girl he will need alot of stuff at home. Am so worried....

He sms me again, the long sms sound like this: "I will take care of Darlene, don't say she will end up like anyone, cause she innocent,maybe u did mistakes in ur past, anyway, anu father abandon her since she was kid, her mum use to force her to 'dig' money from me. am not stupid. in your life your partner happiness is your happiness, remember that. i did alot for you, at least a thanks? that the difference between indian and sarawakian, we indian got heart Ok, do u remember how many times u chase me away from home, even when I meet my guys fren, even I wasn't going out with anyone, u even informs hans alot of things without my permission, u don't respect me! What kinda wife r u, U eat my food, my money. u lock da house, now ur chasin me without single thing,lucky I never ended up wit u and never. I will keep ur sms n da proof of some things i bought under my name and will make a police report today, u can have everything including my car, ur ungrateful, i will prove to everyone that i am somebody one day. i will hold my pride n will be rich one day..."

Not really reply on the best way to him. But, honestly from my heart I would say this:

"I will take care of Darlene (how? his own life is misserable, don't even have a place called home since I chase him out), don't say she will end up like anyone, cause she innocent,( so did anu when the father leave her when she was a kid) maybe u did mistakes in ur past(?), anyway, anu father abandon her since she was kid (yeah...and that the excuse for her to behave like this now), her mum use to force her to 'dig' money from me( and other man too...she already have two police case). am not stupid (just lost your sense of...). in your life your partner happiness is your happiness, remember that(hello...say that to urself. You should read my blog since the beginning. You will know what I do to make you happy and at the end at last to 'release' my self from all this trauma). i did alot for you, at least a thanks? ( by keep on "standing" with you till now even I knew you have affair and this is not the first time, jobless till now, not to mention cheating, lying, screaming, beating, and never respect my feeling) that the difference between indian and sarawakian, we indian got heart Ok (yeah...sarawakian no heart, that why you can do whatever you want to do to me. First of all why on earth must he mention about race?), do u remember how many times u chase me away from home (yes, I remember also y...read the blog), even when I meet my guys fren, even I wasn't going out with anyone, u even informs hans (I hope hans found this site and comment. Did I ever talk to him?) alot of things without my permission, u don't respect me!(by bring your gf to our honeymoon place on our second anniversay is respect? By bringing your current gf to our house now is respect to u?) What kinda wife r u,(yes, I always wonering that too...what the hell am I still doing here?!!!!!) U eat my food, my money. (now, whose the one working in the house? which money are you talking about? How about our Debt almost 100K that I have to pay evey month?) u lock da house, now ur chasin me without single thing,lucky I never ended up wit u and never (i can't imagine I with you too). I will keep ur sms n da proof of some things i bought under my name and will make a police report today (report police what? is the police station become your playground already? Since yesterday, I can tell you've been in the police station in and out just to report things. You have so many things to report huh? and want to report me for what. What a single mother with a child can do to you?) , u can have everything including my car, ur ungrateful, i will prove to everyone that i am somebody one day. i will hold my pride n will be rich one day..."</