I was so depressed the whole day. All my friends not around and they all busy except one old friend that recently I’ve fighting with. I don’t know what to and where to go, but the next thing I realize, I call my old friend and was talking to her about my problems! I thought she would hang up which completely understandable. But, all she said was “where are you? I’ll come over”. After telling her the place I just sitting there blankly with tears all over my place. Lucky not much people that day.

While waiting for my friend, I receive quite a lot of his sms. All his concern is the CAR. He asks me to come back home and send the car to him. But my mind saying out loud. Don’t do that, he will use the car to see his sick girlfriend at the hospital. When never get response from me, he threatening with all the hurtful words. I just ignore all the words and still keep quite. Finally he stops after saying he ‘going out and bye’. At the time my friend was there and I burst out at her. She tried to consol me and at the same time cursing him. But it doesn’t matter. I spend the rest of the day with her.

At end of the day, on our way back home with drizzling rainy night, the traffic was jam quite bad and then heard my friend call my name and read out “XXXX love XXX forever”. I was so busy to look at that creative handwriting on the front mirror and the next thing I realize is bang other’s people car in front. I was so panicked quickly go out from the car and look at damage I’ve done. The car that I banged also stops and goes out from his vehicle. The guy actually not too bad. My friend refer to him as a gorgeous cute guy. Am too occupied to think of that. We discuss for a while how to settle the damage. Of course I have to responsible, it’s my fault! My bad….

Still can feel the panic go thru my vain but try to control and send back my friend soundly and safely. No familiar with my friends area I lost for one hour before reach home almost midnight. When I reach home everybody, My Mum (who came visiting that time), my baby, sisters and brother all sleep already. My husband not at home. Quickly dress up and climb up bed and sleep. Tiring day though….but still spare few minute to talk to GOD about what was happen that day.

In middle of night I was awoke by my husband arrival. Calmly ask about the accident and how’s the car (that the only thing he cared!). I tell him everything including the writing on the mirror. His face emotionless. But still, he said, “Please stop, that a history and I don’t want to talk about it”. But I couldn’t stop myself by saying “ You are 29 years old, but acting like a 15 or 16 years old teenagers in love or in monkey love. Express their love on the wall, on the toilet’s door or on the tree!” I can see changes in his face and I love it!


The next few days am so busy dealing with police, workshop and insurance company. I have no time to think about him. For almost 3 weeks I have to go to work by cab and its really expensive!